Sad or Awesome?

This is a question I deal with on a daily basis. So much of my life is spent on that precarious line between sad and awesome. Like...

I watch so many geekster-hip tv shows, but the show I get the most excited for is Rock of Love Bus. And I think Bret is hot (what can I say, my type is dirty old men). And I am really rooting for Ashley, even though she's like a whore doing a bad impression of Juliette Lewis. The show is like ANTM without the pretense of a modeling career.

Speaking of ANTM, is it sad or awesome that I've not only narrowly missed TWO different auditions, in two different states, but that I'm sad when I realize it? There was one today in NYC but I was more interested in not showering than I was in, you know, advancing my media-slut career.

What about the fact that I'm failing at being a media-slut? I can't decide if that's better or worse than if I succeeded. You know they're not really happy, anyway. Plus - I wouldn't know how to handle the stalkers (and you can be DAMN SURE there'd be stalkers).

Finally: Greg and I drinking and playing on the internet in our respective states while KT enjoys SXSW? I hate traveling, and I love drinking, so I'm gonna have to go with awesome there. Hermits ftw!